Silence it\u2019s one of the best ways a person could describe PTSD<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But it is only silence for you, because it is not silence to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is like having a loaded gun that is placed to the back of my head.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You never hear it, but in middle of the night it wakes me in my bed<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No one else hears my agony, my heart goes thump, thump as my chest gets tight<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And not a soul hears my cries, and I try to tell myself it\u2019ll be all right<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Some cheer and some stare at me but all see it on me like a face tattoo<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There goes another U.S. veteran and now they wonder \u201cwhat did I do\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, even the happy ones, look down or away, they don\u2019t want to see me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because they know in my pain they have a share, are part of my history.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because for their right, had to fight, but at night, pray for light, as I am about to ignite and explode, from the stories untold.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And there is this war inside me on that battlefield it still rages<\/p>\n\n\n\n
For \u201cfreedom\u201d this is what I paid, my heart, soul, and mind these are the wages.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I do not speak about these things I cannot at least never out loud<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Though I wish I could say it, give it sound, just to tell the entire crowd<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wish I could just stand on a podium and share my entire heart<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If all my silence I could just break, to give it a voice, that would be a start.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I know in front of others the minute my very voice I should raise<\/p>\n\n\n\n
They would strike me down and say that I am just crazy and that label stays<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wish that someone would try to understand what the silence is about<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What if I did It? What if I raised my voice what if I did scream and shout?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Could they begin to hear, all my fear, see the tear, or would they jeer, as they Peer, into my soul, my voice to control.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, I sit here in my silence and wonder if that is how it will end.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
More veterans have died from suicide than war and that\u2019s the truth my friend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Still the news channels are silent, worried about some Movie Star I guess.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stars can get more ratings than saving a vet, that\u2019s how it works with the press.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It does not, and will not change that simple fact, that by this same time tomorrow<\/p>\n\n\n\n
About 20 more of my brothers or sisters, GONE I fell that sorrow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The real question for you, will you ignore the truth and all of this science?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Or will you stand up, speak up, interrupt, and help us to break the silence?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, will it be you who sings into my heart the song that needs to be sang?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Or in the darkness, will the last sound that breaks my silence be Click, CLICK! (bang)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Silence it\u2019s one of the best ways a person could describe PTSD But it is only silence for you, because<\/p>\n